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To wake up one day, as an adult, and realize that you are no longer in the driver seat of your life and have no control over your capability to perform normal every day tasks, is not only a foreign reality but frightening one.Instead, you are now someone who is unable to simply walk into work, clock in for 8 hours, perform your tasks, and clock out; all because it takes everything you have, to keep up with your body's natural reaction to trauma and to process all that is different in you, and your life. You have absolutely no way of forecasting when you will be back to "normal", nor do you realize at the time that your concept of normal is outdated because you will never be the same.People want to find reasoning for it, so they blame the victim.Lord knows, if any of these women realized that I wasn't to blame and didn't bring it on myself, then it would be a random act and that would mean it could happen to them!These women, along with other coworkers of both sexes, would hold weekly "I hate Kathleen" meetings to plot how they were going to take me down in court.So, everything around me, people, and the judicial process, became about discrediting me.
In the 5 months it took to get to end the judicial process, I lost about 90% of the people in my life (not an exaggeration); from my best friends to acquaintances.At first her fight was against her assailant and her crime.Then, when Kathleen saw society's silence on the matter and the closed door for survivors in the judicial system, she knew that her stand would be a much bigger fight; and one she could not ignore. One year ago, I locked my door and went to sleep; like we all do on any given night.Some immediately took a rapist's side and some already ran from their own issues in life, so there was no way they wanted to face something as raw and intense as this.